I SAW MY FRIEND AFTER A LONG WHILE!!!! its so good to see him again, bros in COLLAGE WTH!!!!!!! we drew magical girls and then we did some freestyle rap (badly) i cannot state ENOUGH how cool it was to see him again, i hope to see him more over the summer! also been working ahead in school and thats been super cool!! its a lot easier to work when im not worry about the due dates :3 i also had taco bell to night which was super yummy!! ALSO MY LANYARD GOT HERE AND ITS SOOOO GOOD IM SO HAPPY WITH IT!!!! IM SOO HAPPY WITH IT tehehehe, ive also had the motivation to work on my fanfics again!! ive been working on a horror fic >:3 though trying to start it is soooo hard like wtf is daiolauge?? how do i start this shit?? like once i do its kinda a snowball but like setting it up so people know whats going on?? wtf is that, anyways i dont actually have much yap today i just wanted to talk about seeing my firend :D
WOOOO omg ive updated this site so much, the old homepage was HORRENDIS anyways im so happy with it now, been playing lots of leathal company !! its been really fun snice i got a friend to play with!! school started again and for a while i was a bit behind but then MY SCHOOL PUSHED BACK ALL THE DUE DATES???? and now im ahead??? i mean ill take it ofc ofc, but DAMNNNN. i really gotta lock in now tho i NEED to get ahead man, i do not wanna fall behind again lol. espeically becuase my sleep schedule makes me lose a day every week (i stay up longer and sleep longer) my grades right now are pretty good tho for start of the semester! ive been wanting to buy more tf2 merch but i feel extremly gulity when i spend money on myself, so ive deciced so i dont feel guilty ill make it a reward for me passing my all my classes this semester, which HOPFULLY wont make me feel as bad. with my new online school ive been able to pass all my classes and even made honor roll for the frist 2 semesters (my school has 4 semesters a year) so i think ill be able to not only pass but hopfully get straight As, this will actually be the frist time ive ever actually cared about working toward good grades, normally i just do my best on whats assigned and not care about the grade i get, BUT IM ACTUALLY GONNA WORK FOR MY GRADES. imagine what i can do if i actually TRY!!! i think my mom will be happy with me if i truly try and hey i might be able to blink my eyes at her to get me a little treat for passing lol. I also got myself a new lanyard for my carkeys! ive been just using a lanyard from the local collage and it works fine but ive been wanting something that actually was a design i liked and then i found a tf2 themed one!!! so after taking like hours to decide if i should get it or not i finally decided to and yeah i still feel a little gulity for it but im also really excited to get it!! i actually think it will get here tomorrow !! This is the shop i got it from! I'm thinking about getting some more tf2 stuff from them as well! :D
WOOOOO IM BACKKKK tf2 and southpark fixations in full swing!! so imma work on adding stuff to the south park page! im also gonna work on adding a normal art page as i am a artist! if you've seen my sp page you'll know of my sp art page (still need to update with all the sp art i have). i think my art has greatly improved from my sp art lol! in other news ive started self shipping :3 !!! for the longest time i never judged it i just didnt get it and it wasnt for me but the other night i was like "mmmm selfshipping with sniper from TF2... yes" and tbh ive been having sooo much fun with it!! its been really comforting as i have a lot of relationship trauma and its nice to have a relationship where i can feel in control and not have to worry about my trauma getting in the way of things and i can things as slow as i want :D god love sniper tf2 i wish australians where real /j i also found a tumblr community for neocities !!! its so excited and i also made my OWN tumblr community! its an autism community cuz the one i was in had 2 very toxic admins that kinda ruined the community so i made my own, im a little nervous as i havent been a admin or mod for something snice a VERY NOT GOOD discord server i co-owned in early 2022 but i think as long as i just think through things ill be alright! and i have some good admins that can help :D in other other news!!!! i've been doing a LOT of thinking about one of my EXs and well i think i owe him a bit of an apollogy, i have it all written out im just nervous about sending it, ik him and he was one of the most understanding people i knew but idk if he's changed in the past year or if he'll think im just trying to get back at my ex friend (snice he's close friends with my ex friend) so im like AUGHGSDFHDS everyday ive been thinking it over and deciding if i want to or not and by the end of the week making a final descion based on all my descions leading up to that but im still no nervous but ik he deserves it, i should not have rushed into a relationship after i had just gotten out of a super shitty one, it wasnt fair to him and when we broke up i deffinatly treated him to harshly but i still gotta ACTUALLY text him but ofc nerves !!! i wont actually text for a bit cuz again i wanna make super sure this is what i wanna do and this is the righ time to do it. also IT SNOWED HERE LIKE 7 INCHES WINTER IS FINALLY WINTERING !!!!! ITS ACTUALLY BELOW FREEZING FOR ONCE !!!!! anyways i dont think i have anything else i wanna yap about SHOCKING!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR WOOOOO im so not ready lol!! in other news!!! i got my friend to start playing tf2 with me !!!!! >:3 so thats made my tf2 fixation come to the front of my mind so ive been playing a bunch of tf2! ive also been getting reinterested in south park!! so hopfully ill be able to start on that page again lol like ive been making tf2 south park headcanons so that should come out soon lol i also have started a project where i rate and rank every tf2 payload map!! its my favorite game mode and after i noticed my personal favorite payload map from the 2024 summer update got added to the normal paylaod rotation and noticed all the payload maps i havent played and was like "hmmm i wonder if theres other maps id love if i actually like them if i played them" and then decided i needed to rank them !! so tf2 page is in the works and ill be posting about my rankings!! i think it would also be fun to make my rankings into a youtube video! speaking of youtube im trying to start posting minecraft videos becuase its something ive wanted to do snice i was a little kid lol. on a unrealted and a slightly venty-ish note, i stupidly looked at my ex's instagram after it got suggested to me, it just UHGHHHHHHH he only deleted half the posts about me and is now posting about how bad i was and how much better he is with out me, i know thats just how he is, either someone was the worst person ever or their friends. i know i shouldnt care and i know i shouldnt have check but damn does it just hurt to hear him call me a shitty when all i did was try my best to love someone who could not ever give me the time of day. its just UGGHH i really used to love him, but he destroyed me and ruined my friendships and has given me so much relationship trauma and cant even get physically close to anymore. ik no matter what happened i'd always be the asshole to him and i shouldnt care what he thinks i am because ik im not in the wrong but UGHHH it makes me so mad, anyways thats my rant over :3 ON A DIFFRENT NOTE- my dad said he'd take me to casa bonita for my birthday!!!!!!1!!!! im very excited and im also planning on trying to go on a roadtrip to meet my online friend !!!!!!!
OK i have never had a blog before untill like just now (i mean unless you count a tumblr "blog" but all i do is repost shit about MCYTs or TF2 so does that really count?). so i started this website in like july 2023 and then like abandoned it but recently youtube, has really introduced me to the "indieweb" and OH BOY I WISH I KNEW ABOUT THIS STUFF SOONER, ive been having so much fun (re)learning how to code and like actually checking out other people's websites and like actually surfing the web. this one video i found showed me this site called wiby and I've been having so much run clicking "random" and looking through whatever site i find. although im fairly new to the idea and online space of the indieweb I LOVE IT!!! Although i still like places like tumblr and youtube, its such a breath of fresh air to just not have a currated feed of stuff with 60 billion ads in the mix, idk how to describe it but it's a nice break :D and I've been getting my online friends to join me >:3 i hope to add more friend links in the future :D. i also hope to get better at HTML cuz like how else am i meant to costimize my toyhou.se page!? It's really of fun to learn this stuff tho (confusing as FUCK but still fun) ALSO I HAD SOOOO MUCH TROUBLE CODING THIS PAGE BUT IT TUNRED OUT SOO GOOD I MADE MY VISON REAL !!!!!!!!! WOOOO im so proud of myself like actually, like WHAT DO YOU MEAN I ACTUALLY FIGURED THAT OUT??????? it did take me like an hour but shushhhhhhhhhh itts all good, also ive had my cat Nepeta with me, hes such a good helper. tonight is a really nice night, i sat outside for a bit and saw a few raccoons on the other side of my yard, its overcast right now and overcast and night is such a cool and pretty combo, tho it can never beat out night with moon and stars, its also not that cold out (for LATE december) its like 40F ... yeah global warming is totally a scam mhmhm sureeee things are DEFFFF not getting hotter (scarcasm) but ignoreing impending doom it was nice it was also FOGGY!!!!!! i love the fog best weather change my mind!! (you cant)